seventeen alone

shed another tear

go ahead and cry

let it out, reveal

what it is inside

emotions lay awake

night draws in again

and as your heart, it breaks

a new you will begin

same story as before

nothing here has changed

staring at the floor

contemplate you ways

something’s wrong with me

but what I do not know 

this isn’t supposed to be

seventeen, alone

you’ve gained the upper hand

so props to you I guess

im trying to understand

why im a useless mess

take my heart here now

but leave the rest behind

bottles on the ground

i need you here tonight

drunk beyond my words

thoughts carry me on

reality, it hurts

how the fuck are you now gone

runaway

i understand your point, where youre coming from

but I recommend we runaway

and I understand your view, how you see it love

but I recommend we leave this place

cause to me it seems

that the only thing holding us

is the way these roads are bent

and if we can make a change

and leave this judgmental place

then I see a love that was truly meant

i understand that this is adrenaline

but I recommend we runaway

Please understand that our risks, will be battles won

i recommend we leave this place

ill stay

ive learned the pattern of you ways
ive learned that good nights seldom stay
ive learned that you wont be here
youve made that perfectly clear
but ill stay, mostly due to fear


ive learned that youve thought this out
and ive learned how you go about
ive learned how to cope with hurt
learned to expect the worst
but ill stay here to try and make it work


ive learned that words are meaningless
ive learned your heart, through all of this
ive learned the reason why
guess I shouldn’t be too surprised
but ill stay in case you change your mind


ive learned things are better left unsaid
and ive learned that ego drives your head
ive learned that past will surface
learned that youre not perfect
but ill stay cause to me, it’s worth it

and were here again

breaking all of my rules

for just one night with you

id say no, but i forgot how

false hope carries me on

fear leads my broken heart

i never thought that id still be here, now

consequence is a lost term

mistakes are how I learn

im a girl I never thought I would be

finishing what I started is

somewhat an accomplishment

and I intend to do this, selfishly

fuck what they say about you

fuck the hell you put me through

theres got to be a reason youre still here

all the others let me down

a keepsake, seems, I have found

pull me close, now, whisper in my ear

4:55

seeing you last night
made me just realize
im not ready to give up on this yet
memories will follow
leaving me hollow
since long ago, when we first met

i cannot fight this
and dammit, I quit
i don’t see a reason to let you go
the odds are always against us
ive known all along, that were fucked
but that’s never stopped us before

its four fifty five now
i climb in, we ride out
will this storybook have a good ending?
it’s perfect, the moonlight
your smile shining so bright
can we stop with all this pretending?

bitter truth

i never thought youd use your games on me
a victim of your immaturity
i guess I have this problem with trust
mistake my feelings; love for lust


began so fast I guess I should’ve known
im burning up, but your eyes are cold
they said runaway, hes bad news
ignored them because I trusted you


you cocky, prick is this just a thing you do?
win over hearts, and then break them in two
i wish id known that I was being played
cause to me, both can play this game


girls put your drinks up, baby take the show
ladies and vodka because that’s all you know
i guess ive lost now so cheers to you
another round please, fuck the bitter truth