strangers

started as strangers, as unlikely friends

that night in October, our story begins

a head rush, something new filled in my heart

it ended just before anything could start

excited I gave in to every request

longing for you I tried hard to impress

feeble and stupid I cherished your words

lonely, I sit now, bewildered and hurt

how did I let a stranger bring me down

mindful, I force my guard up now

I have to remember I did nothing wrong

continue to push forth, and try to move on

walking away you laugh coldheartedly

judging, but you never even knew me

started as strangers, as unlikely friends

that night in April, our story ends

sinking

hiding from the clouds

from the rain you welcomed down

building up my walls, higher than ever

my guard is up now

the flame is burning out

its still you that I want, forever

deepening now

I dream about

The way we could be together

Been all around

Still haven’t found

Someone who knew me better

running from the sound

of their pessimistic doubt

they try to tell me, never

losing our ground

sinking, we drown

in love, lets go wherever

jump

she feels so low,

she doesn’t want to move

her skeletons hollow,

truth is breaking through

her heart is tired,

she can’t even cry

her every desire

is now a goodbye

you haven’t see her slipping,

or crying at night

you haven’t heard the ripping,

of her heart inside

all you see is a happy girl,

fooling herself

lying to the whole world,

being someone else

in the daytime, she’s hiding;

the sleeves come off at night

the echoes reminding,

she’s best friends with the knife

with a mastered practiced smile,

the nights what she awaits

hadn't feared all this time,

but now she hesitates

both feet on the railing,

a slip could end it all

at this too, she’s failing,

why does she stall?

why does she stall?

somewhere down this road

hoping, I stood there for longer than you deserved

broken, I waited, do you see how im hurt

excuses I made for your own sorry sake

you took as prizes in your stupid games

youve drained all the life

from my tired, hollow eyes

I hope that youre happy now, cause

maybe not tomorrow

and definitely not today

but somewhere down this road

youre gonna wish I had stayed

youre gonna realize  what I had seen

before I walked away

oh somewhere down this road

youre gonna wish I had stayed

defeated, our chapters a page now turned

slowly, I let go of your empty words

I tried to love you through all your faults

so how is it that, youre the one to have moved on

you’ve drained all the life

from my tired, hollow eyes

so I hope that youre happy now, cause

maybe not tomorrow

and definitely not today

but somewhere down this road

youre gonna wish I had stayed

youre gonna realize  what I had seen

before I walked away

oh somewhere down this road

youre gonna wish I had stayed

insanity

there’s a villain inside of you

he leads you on then speaks of truth

his heart is made of fool’s gold

his talk is new, intentions old

fiction pleas are captivating

whispers sweet, you are elating

sees you low, he takes advantage

vulnerable, he does his damage

conscience please, where is your help

turn me into somebody else

untangle me from his restraint

let go so I can runaway

to be great is to be misunderstood

insanity will do you good

crazily, the voices call

telling you to drop it all

body, mind, soul, and pride

leave it all far behind

the best is yet to come, they say

but you can make the best today

rid yourself of false allure

bless your heart with what is pure

break the expected orthodox

instead, just do what you want

you are your own worst enemy

you won’t go far until you see

there’s a villain inside of you

he leads you on then speaks of truth

trying

she tries to paint a picture of her future in the sky

but the tears rolling down her cheekbones give light to her disguise

so princess won’t you tell me what’s on your troubled mind

she composes her face, lies and fakes a smile

hesitates to make him cry, but she’s survived a thousand nights alike

she thinks twice to call him cold, though she knows, he’s lost without a soul

she slowly opens her mouth, trying to bravely think out loud

but she doesn’t know how to go about, voicing her fears and doubts

alone, at last

he says break your shell and make your move
shy she stalls, silence continues
nervous, she stares at his smile
here they are after all this time
thinking of the three years past
face to face, alone at last
he says "just do it cause I want it too
but tonight it has to come from you"
50/50 they compromise
as she leans in by his side
the way his lips feel on hers
the way they move, shatters the earth
she pulls him onto her, being bold
he holds her tight and takes control
in his arms, she feels so safe
perfect night, worth the wait
on his chest, against the couch
she wonders what's to happen now
they fall asleep, he rubs her side
she flashes back to a harder time
he had told her, then, not to fall
he didn't want to lead her on
but there he lays squeezing her shoulder
if only she were three years older
she opens her eyes, and admires his face
he looks back, how can he not feel the same
thinking of the three years past
face to face, alone at last