never

it's hard to look back on our time
to realize omissions are lies
to see that no matter how hard i tried 
accepting it was never going to be me

and it's hard to make peace with the past
struggling with answers to questions unasked 
to know that our moments would never last 
realizing it was never going to be me

it's scary to think how things end
no warning no problem to mend
to see it all crumble and then 
seeing it was never going to be me

it's hard to put feelings to words
love lust and fear and being concerned
to be denied of trust you thought you had earned 
knowing it was never going to be me