trying

she tries to paint a picture of her future in the sky

but the tears rolling down her cheekbones give light to her disguise

so princess won’t you tell me what’s on your troubled mind

she composes her face, lies and fakes a smile

hesitates to make him cry, but she’s survived a thousand nights alike

she thinks twice to call him cold, though she knows, he’s lost without a soul

she slowly opens her mouth, trying to bravely think out loud

but she doesn’t know how to go about, voicing her fears and doubts

alone, at last

he says break your shell and make your move
shy she stalls, silence continues
nervous, she stares at his smile
here they are after all this time
thinking of the three years past
face to face, alone at last
he says "just do it cause I want it too
but tonight it has to come from you"
50/50 they compromise
as she leans in by his side
the way his lips feel on hers
the way they move, shatters the earth
she pulls him onto her, being bold
he holds her tight and takes control
in his arms, she feels so safe
perfect night, worth the wait
on his chest, against the couch
she wonders what's to happen now
they fall asleep, he rubs her side
she flashes back to a harder time
he had told her, then, not to fall
he didn't want to lead her on
but there he lays squeezing her shoulder
if only she were three years older
she opens her eyes, and admires his face
he looks back, how can he not feel the same
thinking of the three years past
face to face, alone at last

chin up beautiful

no one has your eyes
no one shines as bright
so chin up beautiful
everything's going to be alright


mistakes are mistakes
today's a brash new day
so chin up beautiful
everything's going to be okay


you're talents beyond compare
face em if you dare
chin up beautiful
strut without a care


their shallow talks pathetic
learn but don't regret it
chin ip beautiful
soon they'll all forget it


your perfect how you are
blessed with a big heart
so chin up beautiful
shine through the dark


by yes are your peers
don't you waste your tears
chin up beautiful
and know I'm always  here


there will be no sign
truth will come in time
so chin up beautiful
boldly speak your mind

some gloomy title

darker skies cloud over
middle of october
candles burning darkness away
a day turns me older
as the night turns colder
and suddenly I'm alone, a single flame


pathetic I've fallen
angels are callin
i will never be the same
fear keeps me stalling
death keeps me crawling
i've only got me to blame


mistakes are haunting
tragedy is taunting
mimicking my every attempt
bitter nights daunting
love around is flaunting
endless stage of contempt

sorry

if I said that I wanted to kill myself

would you stop me or try to help

cause all of this useless

sitting here worthless

sorry

if I hung a rope around my neck

tighten till theres nothing left

or grab a knife

and end my life

sorry

ill never amount to much

never be good enough

desperate cries

drown out my eyes

sorry

i wish a murderer was in my closet

do he could do the job, and leave me in my coffin

or jump off the balcony

please don’t be mad at me

sorry

i’m honestly good for nothing

when I smile, darling, im bluffing

exhausted of the regret

criteria I haven’t met

sorry

youre not pretty, youre fat and dumb

youre going nowhere so just give up

theres no more hope for you

you always lose

there always somebody better

theres no hope for you

this is the truth

so ill leave with you this letter

sorry

brody's truck

there are a thousand lights in your eyes tonight

kaleidoscope of colors make the prettiest green

a million unspoken words, silence, but all are heard

the walls fade out, and youre all I can see

your smile is destructive, seamlessly seductive

anxiously unbuckle the passenger seat

windows fogged in your car, rain beats down so hard

nervously we shuffle till our lips meet

it gradually intensifies, passion with our closed eyes

my hands running all through your hair

pushed against the car door, weak, our breaths fall short

all the way, right now, i dont care
eyes locked, this moment, trouble, we foment

reluctantly i let go of your hand
a whispered “I love you”, mutual but overdue
finally, together we stand

to be loved

to be loved, like nothing ever was

to be wanted, cause you alone were enough

to trust someone with all your heart

to never want to be apart

to be more than just a toy

to be one girl to just one boy

to care, for someone in that way

to fall deeper in love, with each passing day

to  enjoy their company forever

to know, that youre perfect together

to feel weightless and free

to have life better than your dreams

to understand a life, better than your own

to know youre never, ever alone

to be unable to get permanently upset

to be the one person theyre most happy to have met

to be their hardest goodbye

to have them always at your side

to be their  favorite hello

to have two make one soul

to not question every move you make

to be you and never fake

to able to let your guard down

to talk without a single sound

to quit all the games

to have both feel the same

to be the best thing in their life

to have everything feel so right

to leave, and know that you are missed

to live fully in childish bliss

to never let go, cause you in their arms

is everything, they could ever want

to be loved, to be loved.